Monday, June 29, 2009
It's a GIRL!!!
We had our ultrasound today!!! We found out that she is in fact a GIRL!! I shouldn't bring this up, but I am still a little untrusting of our doctor ever since he messed up on Luke. Luke was a girl for a month. But I'm going to go shopping soon and I will come to grips with it all :) I am very excited!!! I cannot wait!! Everything else looked good as well!!
Monday, June 1, 2009
2nd Appointment
We went to the doctor today. I loved it! We actually didn't get a babysitter, so we had four of our five with us there to hear the heartbeat for the first time. It is always SO amazing to me to hear that little thumping. This baby has a nice strong, steady one. It's funny because I was totally starting to wonder if there was anything alive in there anymore since I haven't felt any movement yet, and because I"m just a paranoid mommy. But it was such a relief and so sweet to hear that heartbeat again. That should get me through the next 4 weeks :) The kids were excited to hear the heartbeat and are still arguing over whether it is a girl or a boy :) Dr. Thackeray joked that we would come in for our ultrasound next time to "find out it's a boy". HA HA! I really feel open minded this time about whether it is a boy or a girl. I think either one would be awesome. I think that people think we're craving a girl by now, but for me, I think I would be okay either way. We do get to go do our ultrasound on the 29th, I'm excited about that.
The other day my mom said that she was "starting to see my baby now" and I just laughed! I really don't feel like I am showing down there. I really look more like I swallowed a baby! My stomach is seriously sticking out (the top part, not where my uterus is) and it looks AWFUL!! It's all chubby. And normally I can suck in that section, well, not anymore! It's so embarrassing. I kinda hope this baby can start growing so that we can even things out. I must be getting a little bigger down in the baby section though because I only have one pair of pants left that don't hurt, and I am even having to unbutton them when I'm sitting down (partly due to the muffin top). I would rather just look pregnant than fat.
The other day my mom said that she was "starting to see my baby now" and I just laughed! I really don't feel like I am showing down there. I really look more like I swallowed a baby! My stomach is seriously sticking out (the top part, not where my uterus is) and it looks AWFUL!! It's all chubby. And normally I can suck in that section, well, not anymore! It's so embarrassing. I kinda hope this baby can start growing so that we can even things out. I must be getting a little bigger down in the baby section though because I only have one pair of pants left that don't hurt, and I am even having to unbutton them when I'm sitting down (partly due to the muffin top). I would rather just look pregnant than fat.
Friday, May 29, 2009
week 15
I'm starting to crave my next doctor appointment. This is about the time that I start to worry. The third week out from my last appointment. I haven't felt my baby move yet (which I'm sure is fine) and it stresses me out. I definitely am not missing out on any of the hormones. I can't seem to get away from the nausea. That's hard for me at this point since I usually feel better at week 14. It's annoying. Nate told me that he thinks this has been the hardest pregnancy so far. Do we just forget??? I was remembering some of the happenings when I was pregnant with my first and it did seem pretty bad back then. But the easier part was that I could lay in bed ALL I WANTED! There wasn't anyone to wake up for and take care of. Now there are 5. It sure is a different type of job. I must say I do feel like this pregnancy is helping me to be closer to Heavenly Father. I feel like I've done a lot more praying than I normally do. I feel like I've turned to him for relief a lot more. It's nice. I've been reading a book about the Atonement and I'm really starting to understand it a lot better and this has been really helpful in using the Atonement for comfort.
I am getting really anxious for this baby. I want to know the gender so badly! I really don't know this time. I automatically assume it's a girl (Nate and the girls all think it is) but there's seomthing that keeps making me think it's a boy. Either way is totally fine with me, but it drives me crazy to not know. I want to buy it something :)
Not much else going on..... just feeling like crap still. I'll have to think of something interesting to write about.
I am getting really anxious for this baby. I want to know the gender so badly! I really don't know this time. I automatically assume it's a girl (Nate and the girls all think it is) but there's seomthing that keeps making me think it's a boy. Either way is totally fine with me, but it drives me crazy to not know. I want to buy it something :)
Not much else going on..... just feeling like crap still. I'll have to think of something interesting to write about.
Monday, May 18, 2009
First Doctor Visit
So, back on the 5th of May I went in for my first appointment. It was so fun to be able to see the baby in the ultrasound, and know that there was for sure a healthy baby growing in there. I don't know why I wonder, but I always do. I sure wish I had gone in sooner because it really rested my mind a lot. We have a great doctor, he always explains all the usual stuff to us even though we've been a million times. Which really helps because, HELLO, we wouldn't be here if we remembered it all from last time!! He did mention that he would refer me to a physical therapist for my back, and then forgot to give me the referral, but I need to just call him I guess. I should. My back is really bad this time. And I am SOOOOOOO tired!!!!! I've slept so much while Nate's been home. Which is definitely a nice blessing, it's just too bad for him. I feel like a crappy mom lately and that doesn't make me feel any better. I can definitely sense the mood swings, coming on pretty strong the last few days especially. And I"m not even going to go into how disappointed I am that I still feel like crap. I usually get better (like overnight) around the 14th week, well, that's in a few days. So hopefully!!!!
We finally started telling people. These were their reactions and I must say... I was pleasantly surprised and relieved with most of them.
My Dad- congratulations
My Mom- congratulations, but why did you tell someone else before me
My younger brother- high five, congratulations
Nana- "I thought you figured out what was causing that?"
My sister- why didn't you tell me sooner?
Nate's family- congratulations! how exciting! When is it due.....
Brad, Luke and Noah were with us at the Dr. office and saw the ultrasound. I don't know why I thought this wouldn't ocurr to them, but they have seen several ultrasound pictures so it shouldn't have surprised us when Bradley shouts out... A BABY! So we told the boys on the way home. Bradley wants to name the baby Batman if it's a boy and Rosabelle if it's a girl.
Brad made the announcement to Kelly and she asked me later but I skirted around the question to see if I could think of a more fun way to tell her and Charity together.
Well, didn't really happen, we ended up telling them on the way to Temple Square just showing them the picture. They're not as good at keeping it a secret, so it is probalby just going to be out now. In fact one of the ladies at church said that Charity made an announcement in Primary.... oh well. I don't need to keep it a secret I guess. I just like to. The kids are all VERY thrilled though. Makes me happy that they are not bummed or bored with the whole idea yet. I bet if they were older and could really remember the torture of pregnancy and a new baby they would be annoyed with it :) I am thankful that they are such good kids and so willing to go down this road with us again. Charity and Kelly are REALLY hoping for a girl. I'm trying to help them not get so set on it since we don't know and that has happened several times, but we all are kind of expecting a girl I think. Not aht we wouldn't be happy with a boy. I personally think it would be nice to break up this threesome and have two and two that could pair off..... but that's just me. I love the idea of either I guess. They're cute about it though. And we talk about this baby ALL the time. They all want to touch my tummy every second (even though I'm really not showing yet). That's not to say that my pants don't feel like they're bruising me of course. I have to do the hairthing on the button trick already. I am going to have to buy maternity clothes. The ones I have are getting old and they are all really hot sweatery type clothes. I am looking forward to the fact that the end of this pregnancy shouldn't be too hot. Kind of like my last two. We've planned this out well ;) I'm grateful.
So that's about it. I really do feel like crap so that might explain my inability to post anything. I want this nausea to be OVER!!!
We finally started telling people. These were their reactions and I must say... I was pleasantly surprised and relieved with most of them.
My Dad- congratulations
My Mom- congratulations, but why did you tell someone else before me
My younger brother- high five, congratulations
Nana- "I thought you figured out what was causing that?"
My sister- why didn't you tell me sooner?
Nate's family- congratulations! how exciting! When is it due.....
Brad, Luke and Noah were with us at the Dr. office and saw the ultrasound. I don't know why I thought this wouldn't ocurr to them, but they have seen several ultrasound pictures so it shouldn't have surprised us when Bradley shouts out... A BABY! So we told the boys on the way home. Bradley wants to name the baby Batman if it's a boy and Rosabelle if it's a girl.
Brad made the announcement to Kelly and she asked me later but I skirted around the question to see if I could think of a more fun way to tell her and Charity together.
Well, didn't really happen, we ended up telling them on the way to Temple Square just showing them the picture. They're not as good at keeping it a secret, so it is probalby just going to be out now. In fact one of the ladies at church said that Charity made an announcement in Primary.... oh well. I don't need to keep it a secret I guess. I just like to. The kids are all VERY thrilled though. Makes me happy that they are not bummed or bored with the whole idea yet. I bet if they were older and could really remember the torture of pregnancy and a new baby they would be annoyed with it :) I am thankful that they are such good kids and so willing to go down this road with us again. Charity and Kelly are REALLY hoping for a girl. I'm trying to help them not get so set on it since we don't know and that has happened several times, but we all are kind of expecting a girl I think. Not aht we wouldn't be happy with a boy. I personally think it would be nice to break up this threesome and have two and two that could pair off..... but that's just me. I love the idea of either I guess. They're cute about it though. And we talk about this baby ALL the time. They all want to touch my tummy every second (even though I'm really not showing yet). That's not to say that my pants don't feel like they're bruising me of course. I have to do the hairthing on the button trick already. I am going to have to buy maternity clothes. The ones I have are getting old and they are all really hot sweatery type clothes. I am looking forward to the fact that the end of this pregnancy shouldn't be too hot. Kind of like my last two. We've planned this out well ;) I'm grateful.
So that's about it. I really do feel like crap so that might explain my inability to post anything. I want this nausea to be OVER!!!
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
10 weeks
So, I'm in the middle of my tenth week. I know it's been a while, but this nausea has really taken over my life! I do not remember EVER feeling this sick. What in the world is going on! I seriously feel like all I do is try to convince myself that i want to eat, then eat, and then feel sick seconds later. It's annoying. I got really sick last week on the my husband's day off (which can be looked at as a huge blessing, or a really huge let down. He spent most of his day off cleaning up my throw up).
On the other hand, I really can't stop thinking about my sweet little baby that is growing inside of me right now. I get way excited to think about whether it is a girl or a boy. I want to know so bad!! I really am wishing I would have scheduled my OB appointment for sooner. I did this last time too, I scheduled it for later just to cut down on visits. They do get kind of old after a while. I wish I hadn't though because I am really anxious to hear this baby's heartbeat and make sure that things are going well. I did have a Priesthood blessing the other day though where I was told that this baby is growing and healthy, so that was a relief. I don't know what I would do without the Priesthood. It brings me so much comfort with so many things in my life.
So yeah, my back pain is back and times 10. My chest pain continues, and actually feels a lot more like heartburn than before, but that's to be expected. I wish I knew what was wrong with my stomach and had something to remedy the problem. I took the pills that Dr. Miles gave me last Sunday and I can't stop wondering if that is what made me so sick on Monday. No logical explanation, just a feeling, but I'm learning to trust my feelings more and more.
I have been craving salad. Yep, regular old green salad with all the toppings. And I have to have RANCH DRESSING!! I about died the other night when I realized we were out. Had it not been Sunday, I would have sent Nate out to get me some. But I guess it's better that than the Fries and Fry sauce I craved with most of my other pregnancies. Or the caramel popcorn, or the raisinettes. Could be worse. I have been eating a LOT of Spearimint Life Savers as well. They seem to be quite the Life Savers in all of my nausea situations. It's been good. That and gum. I finally felt okay today and I think it was because I ate breakfast this morning first thing. I thought I was going to hurl it up the whole time, and for about an hour afterward, but I do think it helped me with the next few hours. Who knows. I really just feel like I can't eat enough, but that I hate eating. It's odd.
Nate has been my Knight in Shining Armor lately. He's really been picking up a lot of the slack and there's been a LOT! He has been really affectionate and very sweet with me. I love that. He is WAY helpful with the kids too, and that right now, is PRICELESS!!!
Well, that's all my ramblings for now. I'm kinda wanting a salad now after talking about it. I will try not to take so long to post. Not that anyone is reading this, but I really want to document it. Oh, I forgot to mention that I am not fitting in one of my pants anymore. Kind of soon in my opinion, but I'm not ready to get out the maternity, so I think the hairthing around the button is going to have to do for now :) Time to buy some new maternity clothes too I think. I have none left it seems like.
Okay, the end.
On the other hand, I really can't stop thinking about my sweet little baby that is growing inside of me right now. I get way excited to think about whether it is a girl or a boy. I want to know so bad!! I really am wishing I would have scheduled my OB appointment for sooner. I did this last time too, I scheduled it for later just to cut down on visits. They do get kind of old after a while. I wish I hadn't though because I am really anxious to hear this baby's heartbeat and make sure that things are going well. I did have a Priesthood blessing the other day though where I was told that this baby is growing and healthy, so that was a relief. I don't know what I would do without the Priesthood. It brings me so much comfort with so many things in my life.
So yeah, my back pain is back and times 10. My chest pain continues, and actually feels a lot more like heartburn than before, but that's to be expected. I wish I knew what was wrong with my stomach and had something to remedy the problem. I took the pills that Dr. Miles gave me last Sunday and I can't stop wondering if that is what made me so sick on Monday. No logical explanation, just a feeling, but I'm learning to trust my feelings more and more.
I have been craving salad. Yep, regular old green salad with all the toppings. And I have to have RANCH DRESSING!! I about died the other night when I realized we were out. Had it not been Sunday, I would have sent Nate out to get me some. But I guess it's better that than the Fries and Fry sauce I craved with most of my other pregnancies. Or the caramel popcorn, or the raisinettes. Could be worse. I have been eating a LOT of Spearimint Life Savers as well. They seem to be quite the Life Savers in all of my nausea situations. It's been good. That and gum. I finally felt okay today and I think it was because I ate breakfast this morning first thing. I thought I was going to hurl it up the whole time, and for about an hour afterward, but I do think it helped me with the next few hours. Who knows. I really just feel like I can't eat enough, but that I hate eating. It's odd.
Nate has been my Knight in Shining Armor lately. He's really been picking up a lot of the slack and there's been a LOT! He has been really affectionate and very sweet with me. I love that. He is WAY helpful with the kids too, and that right now, is PRICELESS!!!
Well, that's all my ramblings for now. I'm kinda wanting a salad now after talking about it. I will try not to take so long to post. Not that anyone is reading this, but I really want to document it. Oh, I forgot to mention that I am not fitting in one of my pants anymore. Kind of soon in my opinion, but I'm not ready to get out the maternity, so I think the hairthing around the button is going to have to do for now :) Time to buy some new maternity clothes too I think. I have none left it seems like.
Okay, the end.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Week 7 ish
This pregnancy is crazy! I think I hit an all-time low (for this pregnancy) with the nausea! I felt AWFUL today! I think it was mostly because I didn't eat last night. If I eat late at night (which I know is terrible for my metabolism, but I do what I gotta do) I feel better in the morning. I felt terrible this morning, and then it just got worse! To make it worse we didn't have any food in the house. I was starving and sick at the same time and I knew that if I just ate something I would feel better. So I finally just dragged my 5 kids down to the store and bought some groceries! It was good to finally eat something but I was still way sick and tired! Luckily I had a few little unexpected blessings and the afternoon flew by. But anyway. I hope that was the last day like that for a while.
I need to get myself out of this emotional low! I feel SO UNMOTIVATED to do ANYTHING! I have let my dishes go for 2 days again (the no dishwasher thing is not helping), and the laundry too..... I just keep trying to get myself to do it and it just doesn't happen. I hate it! I feel bad because Nate has been sick too so we've both just been dead beat parents sitting around doing nothing. This is a stage that I am always aware of and I know it will go away, but UGH!!! I can't believe i still have like 32 more weeks of this! I'm excited for a baby though....funny how I can muster up some excitement when I feel so crappy :) Sweet little spirits can do miracles!
So, I keep stressing about this talk I have to give on Sunday. I am not sure what to do with all the butterflies....I wish they could just tell me the day before because I just stress about it the whole time before. I'm excited to give a talk again though, it's been a while.
I'm really hoping we can get Nate's raise soon and be able to get into a house. It really worries me that we will not be able to get into a house before the baby comes. I hate the thought of being stuck in this basement with a new baby again. I am grateful to have a place to live, but it's a tough one for me to not stress about. Obviously STRESS is a big factor for me when I"m pregnant. I need to stop thinking.
I have been having really strange dreams lately.....gotta love that. They're not my favorite. I won't go into them.
I can't wait to tell the girls about this baby. I know they will be so excited. It's easier for them if they don't have to anticipate it for 9 months though. We'll tell them soon. We have to wait until we want everyone else to know too since they're not as good at keeping secrets yet :)
I remembered another reason I like to wait. I hate the thought of people thinking that i get pregnant for attention or to be babied ya know. I know some have thought that (at least with baby number 2 it was mentioned) so I hate to let people think that ever again. I don't do it for attention. I don't like attention. I like to have babies. I do like the sweet spirit that is there when a baby is brought into the world. I do think that that one special moment is what pulls me through each pregnancy. Pretty crazy that it would! But I love it! So anyway. That's my ramblings for today.
I need to get myself out of this emotional low! I feel SO UNMOTIVATED to do ANYTHING! I have let my dishes go for 2 days again (the no dishwasher thing is not helping), and the laundry too..... I just keep trying to get myself to do it and it just doesn't happen. I hate it! I feel bad because Nate has been sick too so we've both just been dead beat parents sitting around doing nothing. This is a stage that I am always aware of and I know it will go away, but UGH!!! I can't believe i still have like 32 more weeks of this! I'm excited for a baby though....funny how I can muster up some excitement when I feel so crappy :) Sweet little spirits can do miracles!
So, I keep stressing about this talk I have to give on Sunday. I am not sure what to do with all the butterflies....I wish they could just tell me the day before because I just stress about it the whole time before. I'm excited to give a talk again though, it's been a while.
I'm really hoping we can get Nate's raise soon and be able to get into a house. It really worries me that we will not be able to get into a house before the baby comes. I hate the thought of being stuck in this basement with a new baby again. I am grateful to have a place to live, but it's a tough one for me to not stress about. Obviously STRESS is a big factor for me when I"m pregnant. I need to stop thinking.
I have been having really strange dreams lately.....gotta love that. They're not my favorite. I won't go into them.
I can't wait to tell the girls about this baby. I know they will be so excited. It's easier for them if they don't have to anticipate it for 9 months though. We'll tell them soon. We have to wait until we want everyone else to know too since they're not as good at keeping secrets yet :)
I remembered another reason I like to wait. I hate the thought of people thinking that i get pregnant for attention or to be babied ya know. I know some have thought that (at least with baby number 2 it was mentioned) so I hate to let people think that ever again. I don't do it for attention. I don't like attention. I like to have babies. I do like the sweet spirit that is there when a baby is brought into the world. I do think that that one special moment is what pulls me through each pregnancy. Pretty crazy that it would! But I love it! So anyway. That's my ramblings for today.
Monday, March 30, 2009
6 weeks and a little bit
Okay well, in case you didn't notice, by the long silence, I started feeling sick. This is good in that now I'm not stressing about not being all the way pregnant (or losing the baby), but I REALLY hate being sick. This is always SO hard for me. I feel like crap all day long! Today I had to keep laying down and then dragging myself back up. The kids just run around like crazy destroying the place and I can't do anything about it. I can't believe how little energy I have and how little motivation I can muster up. I feel like I'm going to throw up ALL DAY!! I feel like I'm starving all day too, but when I think about food I just want to vomit. Everything I eat tastes gross and doesn't feel good to eat, but if I don't eat I just get weaker and dizzier. I'm trying to just keep eating because that's always helped in the past, but the nausea is not going away like it usually does. It's been crazy. And I now throw up out the other end. Takes a lot longer to get to the things I eat, but I think I prefer it to throwing up. I don't know.
I do have to say (brag a little) that on the bright side I did get right up out of bed the first time I woke up, which is UNHEARD OF for me even when I'm not pregnant. AND I kept going ALL day! I have not stopped to nap since Nate got home. I made a really nice dinner, and still had enough energy (or pretended to) to do family night, learn Kelly's new song, and laugh and smile while we were at the store. I'm proud of myself but also VERY thankful to my Heavenly Father. I know he was with me every step of my day. He has been very close to me lately and I am grateful. I know it's because I am relying on him more and turning to him more when I need strength and encouragement. It's been really nice. This is how I always want it to be when I'm pregnant, but I don't really feel like it's been quite this good with any of the others. Who knows :) It's only been a week since I found out :) But I'm optimistic!
I feel like I'm getting fat already (as I should with all the food I've been eating). I keep wondering what this baby's gender is. I want to know!! I can't believe how anxious I am already....I still have like 33 more weeks! Crazy. Well, I need to go get registered on Americanpregnancy.com so I can keep up on what this baby is doing! I love that!
I do have to say (brag a little) that on the bright side I did get right up out of bed the first time I woke up, which is UNHEARD OF for me even when I'm not pregnant. AND I kept going ALL day! I have not stopped to nap since Nate got home. I made a really nice dinner, and still had enough energy (or pretended to) to do family night, learn Kelly's new song, and laugh and smile while we were at the store. I'm proud of myself but also VERY thankful to my Heavenly Father. I know he was with me every step of my day. He has been very close to me lately and I am grateful. I know it's because I am relying on him more and turning to him more when I need strength and encouragement. It's been really nice. This is how I always want it to be when I'm pregnant, but I don't really feel like it's been quite this good with any of the others. Who knows :) It's only been a week since I found out :) But I'm optimistic!
I feel like I'm getting fat already (as I should with all the food I've been eating). I keep wondering what this baby's gender is. I want to know!! I can't believe how anxious I am already....I still have like 33 more weeks! Crazy. Well, I need to go get registered on Americanpregnancy.com so I can keep up on what this baby is doing! I love that!
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
The hardest part about pregnancy for me
So this is kind of a touchy subject, but I just have to get my feelings down. After all the excited feelings on Saturday and Sunday, yesterday I started thinking about how hard it was to tell people that we were pregnant with like the last 4! For some reason I really dread telling people that we are having ANOTHER baby. For some reason people think it's their business to tell you when you ahve too many kisd or that they are too close together, or "haven't you heard of birth control". Yeah, we get that one a lot. My family was funny because they just all got mad at me for waiting so long to tell them last time. We were living out of state, so no one saw me and so we waited until I was like 4 or 5 months along. They were ticked about that and there was little focus on the number, but then once that wore off....... I just hate how people can't just get excited for us. I don't tell anyone else how many kids to have and I don't claim to think that this is THE ONLY WAY to have a family. I believe that it is different for everyone. I definitely think that there are some people who were just meant to have big families, and those who weren't. I've never thought that my way was the only way. It is the best way for me though. I do appreciate those who are genuinely excited for us. I appreciate those who I get really excited to tell. It's hard to keep my excitement all to myself, but sometimes that seems like the only way to keep it exciting for me. I know six is a lot of kids!!! I'm WELL aware of "how full my hands are!" I really don't need the reminder. But for some reason this is how it is for us! And we like it!! I really wouldn't have it any other way. I need to just hang on to the fact that I know we are doing the right thing for us and that this is what we want and that's all that matters. I know I'm overly sensitive about the whole thing. Time to work on that I guess. But for now......we will keep it a secret I think :)
Week 6
I'm still not feeling all that sick yet. Maybe I'm a dork for this, but that makes me worry just a little that I could miscarry. I've never had a miscarriage though, so the thought just scares me. I could easily be the fact that the medicine they gave me for my stomach is just helping. Who knows. I will just be grateful that I don't feel too sick yet. I know it can be worse.
I know that this is crucial development time, so I am trying to be really good about what I eat and take in. I want to be sure this baby is getting what it needs. (I hate calling it an it, as soon as I can, I am finding out the gender)
I am getting really excited for this baby though. I totally think it's a boy, probably just because the last 2 pregnancies we have expected a girl and gotten a boy. We'll see. My hubby says he thinks it's a girl. We know that there is at least one more girl coming to our family though. Just really strong feelings. I just want a healthy baby!
I know that this is crucial development time, so I am trying to be really good about what I eat and take in. I want to be sure this baby is getting what it needs. (I hate calling it an it, as soon as I can, I am finding out the gender)
I am getting really excited for this baby though. I totally think it's a boy, probably just because the last 2 pregnancies we have expected a girl and gotten a boy. We'll see. My hubby says he thinks it's a girl. We know that there is at least one more girl coming to our family though. Just really strong feelings. I just want a healthy baby!
Before the pregnancy test
Well, March 13th came and went with no period.
About 3 months ago, Nate and I decided that it was feeling like time to start preparing for our next baby. We felt like there were a few areas that needed some work with our family before we would feel comfortable bringing another child into it. We stopped using our birth control, and started calculating when I would be ovulating. I was kind of anxious to have a baby during the months of August, September, or November, but not Oct., Dec., or Jan, Feb, Mar. for the simple fact that we already have birthdays in those months. I know it sounds silly, but that's how my brain works. OF COURSE I would be fine with whenever, I am not picky, but if I could choose, this is how I would. So anyway. I knew when I needed to get pregnant to have a baby during the months I wanted. We tried for a month or so before realizing that it would probably be smart for me to go to the doctor and figure out what might be wrong with my back and chest (I had been having a lot of pain). I scheduled an appointment with my OB/GYN as well to get a pap smear and talk about my painful periods. They found nothing there, and we decided that my endometriosis could very well be back. ("might take a while to get pregnant again" crossed my mind) I double-checked with the doctor that things were okay for us to have another c-section and that he didn't discourage. He had no reservations, told me everything looked great and that while there are more risks with repeats, he didn't think we had anything to worry about.
So I went in for my back and chest pain and that led to LOTS and LOTS of tests and x-rays. It was really discouraging in the getting pregnant area. Nate and I both agreed that (even though it meant missing the November mark and possibly having to have a baby in a month that we already had a bday) we would kind of hold off on trying. I "knew" exactly when I would be ovulating, we avoided doing it during that time (that I thought would be pregnant getting time) and we went on our way. WELL! On March 13th I had my follow-up visit with the Doc to review all the tests I had had done, and basically came to no conclusion other than that my chest pain was possibly gastric and I would need to go in for a really weird stomach test to rule out some weird problem. I assured my doctor that I was not pregnant and couldn't possibly be. So he made arrangements to have those tests done, and he gave me some pills to lower the acid in my stomach. We went home and felt very unresolved and I was really frustrated with the whole thing just because I hate not knowing what is wrong. Not to mention he had pretty much thrown the whole back pain thing out the window and was no longer even looking into it. So anyway. Well, after a few days of missing my period, I started to really wonder. By then I was totally convinced that I was pregnant (in my head) and VERY thrilled!!! I felt like this was meant to be and that it was really exciting, but I didn't want to get my hopes up like I have in the past. I got the idea that maybe it was a weird side effect from the medicine I was taking (yeah, I know it's a stretch), but I wanted to at least find out. So I called the nurse at my doctor's office and left her a message that i had missed my period for a week and wanted to find out for sure if it was possibly a side effect. I wasn't really feeling sick yet, so there wasn't a whole lot to work with as far as symptoms. She told me that that was really not possible, and urged me to take a pregnancy test. So even though I usually like to wait a while (just to kill some time) to take a test, I decided to follow orders and bought a home test. This was Friday the 20th. I wanted to wait until the next morning to get the morning pee. So all Friday night I was just so nervous!!! I don't know why, but I was just so anxious! And it's happened in the past that the day I go to take my test I start my period. I think before #5 that it happened RIGHT AS I went to take the test. That was really hard for me. I know this sounds dumb, coming from someone who already has 5 kids, but it's really hard for me to think of losing one. So anyway. Friday night I started feeling a little crampy (which can be normal for me during pregnancy) but it got me worried that I was going to start. So I said a little prayer asking Heavenly Father to not let me bleed and to please let me be pregnant. I know this must sound so silly, but I really wanted to be pregnant. The cramps went away almost immediately, I thanked my Heavenly Father and the evening went on.
Saturday morning I woke up really early and excitedly went in to take the test. The plus sign showed up almost immediately, but one of the lines was a little lighter so I got nervous, but after reviewing the directions I knew!!! I AM PREGNANT!!!!!! I got so excited inside and ran back to bed to tell Nate. But when I got in bed and started cuddling I realized I wanted to do something cute to tell him, so that night I bought a cute little bib that said, "I love my daddy" on it and left if on his bed with a little note from "baby #6". He was SO EXCITED when we went to bed and saw it. I love that he gets excited with me!! I know it's not the same for the Dad, but he sure knows how to help me and get excited with me. I love that he lets me talk about it a lot too. That's pretty much all I've been able to think about for the last few days now!! I love it!! I'm pregnant!!!
About 3 months ago, Nate and I decided that it was feeling like time to start preparing for our next baby. We felt like there were a few areas that needed some work with our family before we would feel comfortable bringing another child into it. We stopped using our birth control, and started calculating when I would be ovulating. I was kind of anxious to have a baby during the months of August, September, or November, but not Oct., Dec., or Jan, Feb, Mar. for the simple fact that we already have birthdays in those months. I know it sounds silly, but that's how my brain works. OF COURSE I would be fine with whenever, I am not picky, but if I could choose, this is how I would. So anyway. I knew when I needed to get pregnant to have a baby during the months I wanted. We tried for a month or so before realizing that it would probably be smart for me to go to the doctor and figure out what might be wrong with my back and chest (I had been having a lot of pain). I scheduled an appointment with my OB/GYN as well to get a pap smear and talk about my painful periods. They found nothing there, and we decided that my endometriosis could very well be back. ("might take a while to get pregnant again" crossed my mind) I double-checked with the doctor that things were okay for us to have another c-section and that he didn't discourage. He had no reservations, told me everything looked great and that while there are more risks with repeats, he didn't think we had anything to worry about.
So I went in for my back and chest pain and that led to LOTS and LOTS of tests and x-rays. It was really discouraging in the getting pregnant area. Nate and I both agreed that (even though it meant missing the November mark and possibly having to have a baby in a month that we already had a bday) we would kind of hold off on trying. I "knew" exactly when I would be ovulating, we avoided doing it during that time (that I thought would be pregnant getting time) and we went on our way. WELL! On March 13th I had my follow-up visit with the Doc to review all the tests I had had done, and basically came to no conclusion other than that my chest pain was possibly gastric and I would need to go in for a really weird stomach test to rule out some weird problem. I assured my doctor that I was not pregnant and couldn't possibly be. So he made arrangements to have those tests done, and he gave me some pills to lower the acid in my stomach. We went home and felt very unresolved and I was really frustrated with the whole thing just because I hate not knowing what is wrong. Not to mention he had pretty much thrown the whole back pain thing out the window and was no longer even looking into it. So anyway. Well, after a few days of missing my period, I started to really wonder. By then I was totally convinced that I was pregnant (in my head) and VERY thrilled!!! I felt like this was meant to be and that it was really exciting, but I didn't want to get my hopes up like I have in the past. I got the idea that maybe it was a weird side effect from the medicine I was taking (yeah, I know it's a stretch), but I wanted to at least find out. So I called the nurse at my doctor's office and left her a message that i had missed my period for a week and wanted to find out for sure if it was possibly a side effect. I wasn't really feeling sick yet, so there wasn't a whole lot to work with as far as symptoms. She told me that that was really not possible, and urged me to take a pregnancy test. So even though I usually like to wait a while (just to kill some time) to take a test, I decided to follow orders and bought a home test. This was Friday the 20th. I wanted to wait until the next morning to get the morning pee. So all Friday night I was just so nervous!!! I don't know why, but I was just so anxious! And it's happened in the past that the day I go to take my test I start my period. I think before #5 that it happened RIGHT AS I went to take the test. That was really hard for me. I know this sounds dumb, coming from someone who already has 5 kids, but it's really hard for me to think of losing one. So anyway. Friday night I started feeling a little crampy (which can be normal for me during pregnancy) but it got me worried that I was going to start. So I said a little prayer asking Heavenly Father to not let me bleed and to please let me be pregnant. I know this must sound so silly, but I really wanted to be pregnant. The cramps went away almost immediately, I thanked my Heavenly Father and the evening went on.
Saturday morning I woke up really early and excitedly went in to take the test. The plus sign showed up almost immediately, but one of the lines was a little lighter so I got nervous, but after reviewing the directions I knew!!! I AM PREGNANT!!!!!! I got so excited inside and ran back to bed to tell Nate. But when I got in bed and started cuddling I realized I wanted to do something cute to tell him, so that night I bought a cute little bib that said, "I love my daddy" on it and left if on his bed with a little note from "baby #6". He was SO EXCITED when we went to bed and saw it. I love that he gets excited with me!! I know it's not the same for the Dad, but he sure knows how to help me and get excited with me. I love that he lets me talk about it a lot too. That's pretty much all I've been able to think about for the last few days now!! I love it!! I'm pregnant!!!
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